And so that's it.. no more 華歌.
The live was predictably depressing. Most of their set was fine.. we were all having a great time, they were playing the best they've ever played (you could just tell they knew it was the last time they'd be playing these songs) and everyone was smiling and happy. Of course then they chose to finish with 『さざんか』 as I'd expected they'd do. I'm sure none of you have ever heard this song, but it's the reason I love 華歌. There's no way I could possibly explain how beautiful it is, so you'll all just have to wait until the CD has been send out and i might post a clip or something (they didn't finish it in time to hand it out at the live). But, they'd hardly played the first couple of notes before Pon started sniffling and as the song progressed, Kouta was having increasing difficult singing. When the song ended they all just turned and walked offstage crying. Of course, we all cheered for an encore and of course they came back. Before playing their final song they all said a few words.. or tried to say a few words. But they were struggling to say ANYTHING through the tears. Kouta manage to sob out "みんな大好き!" (I love you all) before breaking down on the stage. And Pon couldn't even say anything.. he just sobbed and sobbed while my friends in the front row were screaming "PON CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!". Before the live I thought to myself "There's going to be an uchiage, I can't cry.. my makeup will die!" but I just couldn't help it.. there's nothing worse than watching a group of bois just sobbing onstage, especially a band you love. They then made us all huddle up at the front of the stage so they could take a photo (I was in the front row centre throughout the live and so ended up directly behind Kouta in the photo.. so if they ever do post it, I'll be the purple blob probably sticking out behind his head or something!) which is perhaps going to be the worst photo ever since the band and front row fans all looked DEAD from crying so much!
Howver, then came the humourous part of the evening.. I'm incredibly thankful for it actually because at least it put a smile on my face in the midst of all the tears. I'm guessing you all remember the photos I posted yesterday of the gift I made for the band (I included a giant expensive bouquet roses too). If you didn't catch it, check the post before this one. So yes.. I made each member a little bracelet with their name on it and was SO amused to find that during the in between band interviews (where one member of 華歌 would interview a member of the band who just played while the next was setting up) that Kouta had decided to wear his. I laughed SO hard. Of course, when it came for them to play their own set, they were all dressed in their usual outfits and Kouta had taken the bracelet off of course. HOWEVER, like I said before, after the main part of their set, they went offstage and came back a few minutes later for their encore and did their speeches. It wasn't until they started playing again that I realized that Kouta was wearing my bracelet suddenly.. and then I realized that they ALL were! They'd obviously planned earlier that they were all going to wear my stupid bracelets for the encore. And so there I was, listening to カリスマBaby for the last time live, crying so hard I thought I was going to burst but at the same time laughing my ass off at how ridiculously dorky these bois are (and how dorky I am for making them in the first place!) I couldn't help but imagine them all running offstage crying their little eyes out but still managing to remember to put the bracelets on.
And so カリスマBaby ended.. we all screamed the last line together, did the traditional "hold hands and jump" thing... the curtains closed, and my friends and I just started hugging each other and sobbing. That was it... no more 華歌.
After the live their was a 華歌 uchiage (live after party with a LOT of alcohol) that I of course went to and then got to be even further amused by the fact that Kouta didn't take his bracelet off ALL DAMN NIGHT. Every time I looked at him I laughed. His way of thanks was running over and showing me that he had one of the stupidly decorated boxes of cigarettes I gave him in his pocket.. Rensa just mumbled thanks cause he's SO shy.. Tsuyoshi said nothing at all cause he's even MORE shy (he was sending fangirls over to ask me questions instead of just coming and asking me himself.. funny).. And Pon, once he was wasted as hell, came over and told me he had the bracelet somewhere safe and how he was freaking out on stage when he saw beads all over the floor (he broke his own bracelet on stage) and thought he'd broken the bracelet I made him.. hahaha...
I wonder if these bois have never been given something this stupid before?! Either way.. I'm glad I did it.. I don't really have the confidence in my japanese abilities to talk to people properly and so I wasn't really able to express myself in words to them how sorry I am that they had to break up.. or how much I enjoyed being able to be a part of their band life. And as ridiculous as decorated boxes of cigarettes and tacky little bracelets are, I think that somehow through that I was able to say thankyou to them. And they were able to say thankyou to me in return by making such a big deal about wearing them onstage.
I'd write more.. but re-living this has started me crying again so I think I should leave this here for now. I'll post a set list and such later.. Sorry this ended up being so long...
Edit.. Someone want to explain to me why on earth this is no longer showing up on my friends page?!?!?! *confused*